Today I went on the first real 12th step call I’ve ever been on, and it was so very sad. I always wondered what that would be like. It was not glamorous at all.
An alcoholic in his cups is an unlovely creature.
-BB p.16, Bill’s Story
She reeked of alcohol. There were bottles everywhere. We threw them away. One – a vodka bottle – still had vodka in it. It made me thirsty! How can I be witnessing such horror and still have a mental pull towards that poison? (Clearly, the answer is that I am an alcoholic!)
We told her we loved her. We told her about the solution. We took her to a hospital. She almost wouldn’t go with us. I told her I believed her only other choice was to stay here and die an alcoholic death.
To be doomed to an alcoholic death or to live on a spiritual basis are not always easy alternatives to face.
-BB p.44, We Agnostics
She is on suicide watch. The back story I will not tell here. But oh, God, how sad I feel. This disease is so horrible. What it does to us is so, so very tragic.
I suspect this won’t be the last time I am a witness to the terrible reality of alcoholism if I am to stay sober. It made me think of all the people I have seen come in and go back out of my home group in the last couple of years. So many people…where did they go? What will become of them? Are they alive? Why do some people get to stay and others have to continue this battle they will never win?
He begged the doctor to tell him the whole truth, and he got it. In the doctor’s judgment he was utterly hopeless; he could never regain his position in society and he would have to place himself under lock and key or hire a bodyguard if he expected to live long. That was a great physician’s opinion.
-BB p.26, There is a Solution
Please pray for D.