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The Bondage of Self

In the 7th step prayer, I ask God to relieve me of the bondage of self, so that I may better do His will. Over time working the steps, and through study of the 12 and 12 and Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have identified many of the parts of self that hang me up and keep me in bondage. The list so far:

Self-centeredness
Self-seeking
Self-pity
Inaccurate self-appraisal
Self-centered fear
Selfishness
Self-deception
Self-delusion
Self-destruction
Self-determined objectives
Self-importance
Self-justification
Self-loathing
Self-propulsion
Self-reliance
Self-righteousness
Self-sufficiency

It helps me to remember that “any life run on self-will can hardly be a success” (BB p. 60), and any review of my life shows me that is the case! I am here to play the hand God dealt me and no amount of wishing it was any other way is going to change that. I am not in charge and I don’t make the rules. I don’t get to decide what is best for anyone else either! “It’s all in Divine Order” my sponsor tells me. So when I get tied up in any of the parts of self listed, I again have to make a choice like I did in Step 2: “…either God is everything or else He is nothing.” (BB p. 53)

God, help me to submit to Your will today!

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